Today’s News

Ever felt that you were inadequate? Did you ever get that nagging feeling when even if you exerted all your effort you still fell short. We received a simple question today and following our SOP, I drafted a reply for approval. Since it is a simple Yes or No question, I prepared a simple and straightforward reply as well – in one sentence. When the client replied to me, she told me that the reply should be broader – so my one sentence became three sentences! Being ever paranoid, it made me question my competence (OA right?) Coming from last week’s fiasco about grammar and shizz – this is surely not helping. A colleague told me to move on and look at the brighter side of things: maybe they just want to make the wording more elaborate and more expert-sounding. But still, I can’t help but feel bad This is surely not healthy for me I know.

In other news, felt unproductive today. Coming from the break, there are no urgent tasks to be done yet. I hope I can get my groove tomorrow.

Hope you had an amazing day!

Shuffle

My current favorite iPod playlist is on shuffle and these are the first 10 songs:

1. 2NE1 – To Anyone

2. The Bravery – Ours

3. Keane – Somewhere Only We Know

4. Bruno Mars – Just the Way You Are

5. Chris Tomlin – Indescribable

6. Glee Cast – Telephone

7. Francis Magalona – Kaleidoscope

8. Metric – Eclipse (All Yours)

9. Chris Brown feat. Lil Wayne – I Can Transform Ya

10. Charice – Pyramid

 

Karen

Since I’ve been talking to her A LOT lately, I think it’s more than fitting to write about Karen Bianca Menchie Bella Chabelita Valeza. Maybe I’ll do a series of FRIENDS post – inspired by Tish‘s post a few weeks back.

Anyway, going back to Karen – we weren’t really that close when I started out as an Editorial Assistant. She has her own world in her corner – if she’s not busy writing her articles or working on a project – you can trust me when I tell you that she’s either watching Kpop videos or browsing through Soompi Forums

But I guess we’re really meant to be friends OR in Karen’s choice of words: I guess I was REALLY very fortunate to have her as one of my closest friends (she will love this, I’m sure of it ). I have to thank our dark C days – partly because if it weren’t for unreasonable demands and people – I guess we will not have the chance to develop our friendship

Though she’s bad at remembering birthdays – Karen is truly a friend you can count on. She also easily says yes to urgent divine intervention meet-ups.

So Karen Carebear, thank you for teaching me how to appreciate Kpop and K-drama. Thank you for keeping me updated with the latest happenings in Philippine showbiz Thank you for being a true Ashrald fan. Thank you for your words of wisdom, advice, and opinion. Most of all, thank you for being a true friend and for your “sup girl!” message on Gchat that completes my day (insert CHOS here )

 

**Karen writes for Yahoo! Philippines Check out her articles on Yahoo! OMG

Allow me to…

Post this cheesy entry I’m currently working on an article for my sideline job and what’s new? I’m not inspired to work on it. Still thinking of how I’m going to tell my “employer” that this will be my last issue.

I digress.

Last week, JP shared a song with me. He told me that the song is perfect for us It has been my companion since then. It makes me smile and feel better – most especially when BVs and dementors want to ruin my day.

I don’t really want to share it with anyone but the video has over 3 million hits on Youtube so I can’t probably “own” it and keep it to myself. Take time to enjoy the heartwarming video and listen to the lyrics

I hope you like it too

**Disclaimer: I do not own this video. Link from Youtube. No copyright infringement intended

Is it just a feeling?

It’s April. Amazing how time flies. I just “celebrated” my 6th month with my new work last March 05. 6 months felt like years – with all the happenings and lessons. Being evaluated as someone who exceeds expectations made me very happy because I can now relax and stop being paranoid over the simplest of work boo-boos. The highlight of my evals? My boss telling me that I should consider my long-term career. I may be happy now but what about the long run?

So here I am – finding myself wondering (AGAIN) what to do with my life. With my “career”. About three things I’m definitely sure about right now:

1. I want to improve my writing

2. I miss publishing

3. I’m never going back to the company I used to work for

When I told my parents that I want to explore my options, they told me that 6 months had only passed – implying that my feelings might change. Plus there’s an out-of-the-country company outing in two months time that I might want to wait for (partly the reason why I renewed my passport). The thing is, it’s not only the career part that bothers me but the people factor as well. Don’t get me wrong, there are good people at where I am now and I will always be thankful that I had the opportunity to make new acquaintances but these things lead me back to the long-term factor. It’s like I can’t settle at where I am now. The feeling I felt with my former workplace (before it’s demise) is absent. There are nights when I stare at the ceiling asking myself: what will tomorrow bring? Who will I eat lunch with? How can I go home early? – pathetic, loser questions I know.

I hate the feeling of dread. Work is something you should look forward to, right? (on normal, giddy days I suppose)

I don’t want to be the pushover so I’m promising myself right this minute that I won’t let the negative vibes get to me. I should just focus on getting things done so that I can go home early. So that I can be the normal me.

How I hate this feeling. So now, I’m back in the arena (ala Hunger Games which I watched last week, which gave me the realization that books are better than movies – this is an entirely new topic) looking for options and hoping that I will find what I’m looking for.

Here we go again

So I’m buying a new phone. I hope this one lasts.

Loner

I have this weird thought that maybe I was born to be a loner.

Though I love my friends – and I like spending time with them, sometimes I feel like I enjoy my quiet time more. Maybe because I don’t enjoy the things they rave about or maybe because I get annoyed easily

On second thought, I might have bipolar disorder or this could be brought about by hormones.

This is very random.